Mini breakdown

So I just had a little breakdown. Sky and I were laying on the futon with our legs tangled up but our torsos spread apart and Sasha went and laid down at our feet and Bella crawled up and laid in between us facing me. She was being so damn cute and I would have taken a picture but she was laying up against me so I couldn't really get up. But we were petting her and she was just snuggling and I started crying again because as some of you already know, we aren't taking them to Japan. We're taking them to stay with "Grandma" and "Grandpa" K. Don't get me wrong, they'll love it there, probably way more than they would enjoy being in Japan with us, but I still feel like I'm abandoning them. I mean I know I'm really not, its not like I'm taking them to a shelter or just leaving them outside to fend for themselves, but they're my babies, and I love them so much. I know we kind of jumped the gun getting them in the first place but I never, in my entire life, had a pet, and I really wanted a dog. I'm just going to miss them so very, very much. I know this is the best thing for everyone, Sky and I will have the opportunity to focus on school as well as (hopefully) traveling Asia, Sky's parents will get the other dogs they've been considering for a long time, Bandit will get sisters again, and Bella and Sasha will get spoiled rotten, but it still doesn't make it any easier.

I'm going to miss (almost!) everything about them. The way that Bella "talks" in her sleep. Sasha's ADD. Bella's under bite. Sasha sitting so pretty. The way Bella loves to cuddle. Sasha's awesome ability to learn a new trick in a day. The way they play. How excited they always get when we come home, even if we've been gone for like five minutes. They're wonderful dogs, and even though they aren't at well behaved as I'd like they are always by my side. =(

Now I'm going to mope around and eat my lunch. Gomen... I just needed to get that out. Hopefully my next post won't be so sad.