Grr...

Today started off alright and as usual with me calling Kimmie and talking to her a while. Danielle and I were supposed to go to the Lush store in Scottsdale but her day started off pretty poorly so we didn't end up doing that. We just kind of hung out. Hubby and I went over to my parents house for dinner tonight and that was pretty good. I ended up being really upset on the way home though. I mean, I'm stoked about going to Japan but now I'm scared to death. I'm pretty useless on my own, or at least I feel that way. I don't have my license yet and its pretty embarrassing but honestly I'm terrified of driving. Other people are so idiotic on the road its unbelievable. Its incredibly surprising that 3/4 of the people on the road even have licenses... or maybe they don't but either way they are on the road and its scary. I would feel more comfortable if I had more practice but I'm such a noob! It just scares me to be in control of a massive heap of steel that is capable of traveling at high speeds. I don't think its irrational considering the amount of accidents I have been in, but I just wish I could get over it somehow... I just don't know how. It doesn't help that I get pressure from a lot of people... I don't know. I'm just really upset right now. I wish I could find some way for me to just relax... I really hope that this plan that I have works and I'm able to get my license before Japan. Its possible I just wonder how probable it is. If I don't get my license here I'm stuck without it for another three years... and while that is a little relieving it is also extremely unnerving. We shall see. Stay tuned...